havent been around here long

havent updated much latetely.... havent had energy too been crazy hectic... everything went from bad to worsr in a blink of an eye... and i feel alone.. and it hurts :( i know i have people i can talk to and rely on but i still feel alone... i want them close by :( i need them now more than ever... i need them to be with me... but everyone has their own things at the moment :( imaybe im just pathetic maybe i just annoy them to much...

iim tired... tired of life... tired of nightmares... tired of crying... tired of everything... tired of being alive on a planet where all i do is get hurt... whats the use? im not exactly important

sitting and thinking..

cant i just end it? :(