Visited my aunt Debbie today :)
she new something was wrong with me immediately
but she normally does.. she knows me better than anyone else in my family
PSH sounds like one of my best friends, Debbie wow i need to stop making friends
with the same name as someone in my family
starting to freak my self out :P
lmao, well my aunt thinks i should press charges.. ugh everyone does
but its my decision and everyone is making it hard for me
only people on my side who care about my opinion is my "daddy" and "sis"
everyone else just wants to punish these guys
my great gran got out her hospital bed for an hour today so we're happy for her she can actually talk but she started crying when she remembered she cant walk :(
My dad has to go into hospital for a 48hour surveillance because he failed his medical ugh just what we need right now :) ( sarcasm )
:( things arent going well at home no matter how bad my family wants to pretend and everyone is putting so much pressure on me im starting to wonder why im around since obviously no one cares about what i want anymore even in my situation its all about them... why cant someone ask me how im really doing for once instead of pressuring me with more heartbreaking decisions im 15 for petesake!
my dance exams are soon which is putting me under huge stress my dance teacher wants me to lose weight but in the meantime i see my dreams vanishing from my mind. im becoming a mindless clone. doing and saying what people want i cant say how i feel i try but it doesnt come out right.. thats why i like poetry
Tears falling against my stone cold face
the sky has thin patterns of clouds like lace
the wind blows through my hair
sitting on the highest dock
over the ocean i wistfully stare
losing myself inside my own mind
come closer and you'll see
what this world has done to me
im just a body with no soul
my heart is an empty hole
the things you've stolen away
can never return in just a day
joy, safety, happiness, peace
would u notice if i were deceased?
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