I hate my real dad so much. He cares more about his online girlfriends than his own family. I hate him for so many reasons.. I just cant believe he'd hurt us so bad. Ok no wait i can. Because he's hurt me alot. :(
Wish i were dead but im past the stage of suicide an gone into a worse 1
All the anger i kept locked up is starting to explode an im angry at everyone. Myself an the world. Im stormin out on people an screamin at them an burstin into tears for no reason
Things i want to say to my Dad.. Probably never will
I dont know who you are anymore and i dont like who you've become. You're hurtin all of us very much and you've especially hurt me the most. I forgive you for what you've done to me even though i hate you for it but i want to help you... I need a dad in my life just like i need a mom even though it feels like she hates me..
A poem i wrote
Am i really out of control like you say
Or is it just because you cant handle me
You put me down everyday
Everything i say you dont believe
Im starting to wonder what i am to you
Am i the mistake you keep talkin about
The thing you wish you never had? Is it really true...
I know you've never loved me i know that without a doubt
But hearing it every day of my life
Kills me slowly an cuts me deeply inside
Like a newly sharpened knife
Using my heart as an amusement ride
Cutting pretty patterns lettin the blood fall slowly
Wind gently blowing
I look at you in your eyes
Tryin to find the reason why
Is it true you hate me?
Or is it just me being decieved . . .
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