My life is a wreck.... We're busy packin.... We're moving :( and we dont know where we're going... No airtime or internet i wont have contact with anyone an im scared because my friends are the ones i need they bring me up an i dont want to do this i cant do this my pshycologist cancelled today's session an i started on new anti depressants lets hope they work wat am i going to do? Im so scared.... Been crying all night for the past few weeks nothing seems real anymore.... Im sitting lookin in the mirror wondering whats really left of me thats mine.. People are telling me what do an say.. My actions an voice arent mine people are telling me who to be im not me anymore i feel like a clone im building up walls an having a hard time keeping the people i love inside the walls but i can never push them out. I love them to much they're my friends.... Heres a poem i wrote

Inside this mirror, i see myself..
Trapped behind a face no longer mine
i am the only one who can see my bitter decline...
Only one who can see my hidden tears
Only one who can taste my horrible fears
Hidden in the suicidal world of my own
All my memories knitten and sown
All the dread an lies u said
Makes me wish i were dead
Taking in your threats
Feeling horrible regrets
On this cold miserable day
My mirror will break
Cracking an breaking as my life it takes
As the mirror breaks my life will fade