Watchin dvd's with mom, dad and sis... I bought everyone lunch with my own money. They never thanked me but thats usual. Now my dad is picking a fight with me :( and mom and life is just fallin apart even more... Im not sure if im even still alive everyone is busy today so im stuck alone with my thoughts. Suicidal depressing thoughts :( i need someone so bad right now... I need "my" baby zhade im so lost an confused i know i keep sayin it but its true only i have right now is my teddy an even he is giving me the silent treatment.. I guess im alone